Dismayed! disappointed! Looks like i can never get out of this perpetual inconsistent behavior of mine!
Its been days since i updated my blog! Though i write nothing serious or useful, i always wanted to write my experiences...as my sweet freind rauf used to say" record things neeru...start a journal.....it really helps!!"
When i first met my husband little less than a year ago, I told him i love to blog. He asked me..."u mean like an online diary?". I said "yes..something like that" ...He asks again.."so.you write about your personal things too? ..like this meeting of ours?"...I dint have any particular answer but immediately gave a big no cos i knew he is not "that" kind of a person who does such things! :) As months passed i understood how much a secretive person he is..meaning "sharing things on a need to know basis". Quite a new concept for me! :D Im such a loquacious pig that i buckbuck everything to anyone ! Pretty dangerous huh??!!
Though i have relentlessly caught up with my "Duties" (god forgive) as a new housewife and a daughterinlaw (loved by everyone - they say!) i always wanted to get back to writing! Now i dont find time (i hate this phrase believe me) as im now an officegoer, i althemore have to squeeze in things that i wish to do!
Still, i dont get time for my guitar, my tiny winy escapes to the woods, for my freinds, for my blogs, for my photography pursuits, for my painting classes and i know for sure also for my yet-to-be-joined sanskrit classes!
enthusiasm persists! consistency kilss itself after couple of weeks! (thats huge a time for someone like me). My husband prays i dont feel bored of him like i get bored with other things that i did in the past!(God knows :D). getting bored? No ... i dont agree to that! im ofcourse unfocussed! but given the proper self-drive i can accomplich things! Thats what i need to develop at this stage for i know this is gonna help me a long way!
If nothing else in my life...i can never forget the wonderful stay i had in europe for my studies where i had such exciting travels, wonderful freinds and above all, an inner journey! It did teach me lessons. Some i retain, some i would love to forget cos it aint helping me anymore!
When somebody asks hows life.. the best word i can ever find is "ohhh its a roller coaster" you never know how fast/ slow its gonna take you and whats beyond the bend! LIFE CAN BE TOTALLY SURPRISING! TOTALLY!!!
Time is flying! already 6 months since i finished my course. My freinds are doing various kinds of things..some got married like me..some do their phd, some searching for their dream jobs and some already in some job they can get hold of. Wonderful memories cloud my mind when i think of the past couple of years. Several things have changed. Encountered many experiences that i thought i would never be able to do...Some helping hand guided me! I underwent certain changes..some of which its nice to retain, some of which im planning to discard. In the process I discovered a "new" me. Still i am! :) Thats the beauty! For all that nature has given, im truly grateful ;) Our Master is a perfect planner and executor! Hail master! Hail life :)
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